And when your tears are dry from crying, and the world's turned silent

So many things have happened lately, i don't really know how to start.

Tuesday: My Birthday! The feeling of being 16 didn't really hit me hard. Maybe it was because of many other external factors which were bothering me that caused things to turn out this way. Does it really matter? Be it 15 or 16, life's still as hard, the responsibilities, the problems that you face, are still there. However, being 16 comes freedom too. MY NC 16 MOVIES! haha. i've been a good kid, alright. I didn't sneak into cinemas illegally to watch the movies that i shouldn't be watching (though i've been really tempted) Oh, A BIG THANK YOU to recess clique and all those people who have wished me. It made my day, really. Like what dionne says, you're only 16 once. SO, i'm resolved to make this year A BIG BLAST. HAHA, just watch me, manzxzxz. :D
Wednesday: Sec one welcoming party. :DDDD so fun. i love the sec fours, i love the team! i'm sure we've just proved to the whole world that despite being one of the worst bagde, we're capable of doing things WONDERFULLY if we want to! i'm sure everyone enjoyed the day, especially me and limin. The joy of taking unglam photos never fail to send us laughing for the whole day HAHAHA.
on the other hand, cheer up, Qing! The team will always be here for you, be it rain or shine :)
Friday: Labour day. When all the teachers wished us: 'enjoy your long weekend', i end up wondering: 'how to enjoy when we have 4 tests next week?' sigh, the life of the 16 year old girl.....

The greatness comes not when things always go good for you. But the greatness comes when you're really tested, when you take some knocks, some disappointments when sadness comes. Because only if you've been in the deepest valley can you ever know how magnificent it is to be on the highest mountain.
-Richard Nixon

I want to hold on to that faith that things will get better. It's too soon to say it's over, because it's not. For the days to come, no matter how many times i fall down, I will make sure that I'll stand up even stronger than before.

what would you do when you find that your mind is going over the edge, and your soul is hanging dangerously at the cliff?

JUST A little BIT MORE.

I shall declare here that holidays are coming to an end. It's kinda sad, considering the fact that i'm still living in the START of holidays. Unbelieveable. How fast can time fly? i think i'll never be able to figure that out. This one week holiday is too short, yet undeniably, it's a good break. :) taking a little time off the hectic school life is really wonderful. i want to feel recharged and energised when term 2 comes, (in 2 days time), but i don't really feel so now. Nevertheless, keep on going, yuhui! can't wait for nationals. :D

i shall be an insensitive person no more. :)

Don't give up even when you feel like doing so. It's so much easier to be said than done. Always look on the bright side of life. However, is there even a bright side to look at?
school's draining. Like a vampire, it's taking away all my blood, my energy. Meeting with setbacks is part and parcel of life. It depends on a person's perseverance to determine how long they can last, how resilient they are. When you have commitments that you have to spend time on, yet you really do not have the time to do so, is it good to let go? Maybe not, it's kinda irresponsible. Life's not just about studies, studies and more studies.
When people say move on, how many of them really do so, i wonder.

WELL DONE TEAM!
i'm really glad that the match today had turned out to be WONDERFUL We fought hard, we fell, but we stood up even stronger than before. YAY. :)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CHUA LIMIN AND DIANA LEE SIHUI!
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HAHA.
To Limin:
happy birthday! aren't you touched that i've spent my time to blog this post instead of studying?! haha, but still, i'm glad that you are so happy today. I do hope that this happiness will stay on for the rest of your life. Thanks for being the greatest partner and let 's work hard together for everything that we do :)

To Diana:
Hey, our friendship is 11 years old now. Can you believe it? haha, let's make history. :) anyway, haven't seen you for a long time now. i know that all of us are caught up in our school work and won't be able to forge out the time to meet up. BUT. WE WILL. hahah, happy birthday and all the best to everything you do. :)

along the sidewalk
the breeze blew
my face
cold

i clenched my fists
my knuckles turned white
my hands
cold

tears streamed my face
i thought of her betrayal
my heart
cold

Ok, i'm not making sense but who cares. i would say that i'm managing my sec four life reasonably well i guess. i was reading the english newspaper on this article of 'hidden mental illness' and saw that symptoms of it are insomia and paranoia. So people, please seek the doctor if you think you have all these symptoms. It's so scary. On the high note, i can't wait for chinese new year! it's a break, yes it is :D