It's never lonesome with us 3!

2009-05-01T09:24:00.002+08:00

And when your tears are dry from crying, and the world's turned silent

So many things have happened lately, i don't really know how to start.

Tuesday: My Birthday! The feeling of being 16 didn't really hit me hard. Maybe it was because of many other external factors which were bothering me that caused things to turn out this way. Does it really matter? Be it 15 or 16, life's still as hard, the responsibilities, the problems that you face, are still there. However, being 16 comes freedom too. MY NC 16 MOVIES! haha. i've been a good kid, alright. I didn't sneak into cinemas illegally to watch the movies that i shouldn't be watching (though i've been really tempted) Oh, A BIG THANK YOU to recess clique and all those people who have wished me. It made my day, really. Like what dionne says, you're only 16 once. SO, i'm resolved to make this year A BIG BLAST. HAHA, just watch me, manzxzxz. :D
Wednesday: Sec one welcoming party. :DDDD so fun. i love the sec fours, i love the team! i'm sure we've just proved to the whole world that despite being one of the worst bagde, we're capable of doing things WONDERFULLY if we want to! i'm sure everyone enjoyed the day, especially me and limin. The joy of taking unglam photos never fail to send us laughing for the whole day HAHAHA.
on the other hand, cheer up, Qing! The team will always be here for you, be it rain or shine :)
Friday: Labour day. When all the teachers wished us: 'enjoy your long weekend', i end up wondering: 'how to enjoy when we have 4 tests next week?' sigh, the life of the 16 year old girl.....

2009-04-05T10:14:00.003+08:00

The greatness comes not when things always go good for you. But the greatness comes when you're really tested, when you take some knocks, some disappointments when sadness comes. Because only if you've been in the deepest valley can you ever know how magnificent it is to be on the highest mountain.
-Richard Nixon

I want to hold on to that faith that things will get better. It's too soon to say it's over, because it's not. For the days to come, no matter how many times i fall down, I will make sure that I'll stand up even stronger than before.

what would you do when you find that your mind is going over the edge, and your soul is hanging dangerously at the cliff?

2009-03-20T19:35:00.003+08:00

JUST A little BIT MORE.

I shall declare here that holidays are coming to an end. It's kinda sad, considering the fact that i'm still living in the START of holidays. Unbelieveable. How fast can time fly? i think i'll never be able to figure that out. This one week holiday is too short, yet undeniably, it's a good break. :) taking a little time off the hectic school life is really wonderful. i want to feel recharged and energised when term 2 comes, (in 2 days time), but i don't really feel so now. Nevertheless, keep on going, yuhui! can't wait for nationals. :D

2009-03-14T14:19:00.000+08:00

i shall be an insensitive person no more. :)

2009-02-27T21:04:00.002+08:00

Don't give up even when you feel like doing so. It's so much easier to be said than done. Always look on the bright side of life. However, is there even a bright side to look at?
school's draining. Like a vampire, it's taking away all my blood, my energy. Meeting with setbacks is part and parcel of life. It depends on a person's perseverance to determine how long they can last, how resilient they are. When you have commitments that you have to spend time on, yet you really do not have the time to do so, is it good to let go? Maybe not, it's kinda irresponsible. Life's not just about studies, studies and more studies.
When people say move on, how many of them really do so, i wonder.

2009-02-18T18:46:00.002+08:00

WELL DONE TEAM!
i'm really glad that the match today had turned out to be WONDERFUL We fought hard, we fell, but we stood up even stronger than before. YAY. :)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CHUA LIMIN AND DIANA LEE SIHUI!
16 16 16 16 16 16 16 16
HAHA.
To Limin:
happy birthday! aren't you touched that i've spent my time to blog this post instead of studying?! haha, but still, i'm glad that you are so happy today. I do hope that this happiness will stay on for the rest of your life. Thanks for being the greatest partner and let 's work hard together for everything that we do :)

To Diana:
Hey, our friendship is 11 years old now. Can you believe it? haha, let's make history. :) anyway, haven't seen you for a long time now. i know that all of us are caught up in our school work and won't be able to forge out the time to meet up. BUT. WE WILL. hahah, happy birthday and all the best to everything you do. :)

2009-01-18T10:21:00.002+08:00

along the sidewalk
the breeze blew
my face
cold

i clenched my fists
my knuckles turned white
my hands
cold

tears streamed my face
i thought of her betrayal
my heart
cold

Ok, i'm not making sense but who cares. i would say that i'm managing my sec four life reasonably well i guess. i was reading the english newspaper on this article of 'hidden mental illness' and saw that symptoms of it are insomia and paranoia. So people, please seek the doctor if you think you have all these symptoms. It's so scary. On the high note, i can't wait for chinese new year! it's a break, yes it is :D

2009-01-08T15:35:00.002+08:00

School's been draining, but nevertheless fun in the sense that we are motivated to do well for o's this year. I'm determined to listen attentively and be extra hardworking during lessons, so that i do not have to 'chiong' when i get home. ms law's history lesson today made me realised that i've been studying in an inappropriate way. i'm plainly memorising and not understanding which is really bad. To do well, you need to love the subject and absorb, not study it. Still, it's easier said than done right? chinese o's results is coming out on monday. i wouldn't say i'm looking forward to it seeing how i screwed it up. That moment is still unfortunately, etched in my mind. I know it's no use running away, because you still have to face the truth at the end of the day. I won't let it affect my remaining exams, because i know i can :D I'll make the best out these 9 arduous months and pray hard that it will be the best year in my life ever :) GO YUHUI!

2008-12-28T17:08:00.002+08:00

感恩的心，感谢有你，陪伴着我，让我有勇气做我自己
感恩的心，感谢上帝，花开花落，我依然会珍惜
i just realised how much i have missed out in life. yuhui, you are the most pathetic soul in the whole world. if i had held on to everything i have tighter, i would have been a better person, really. i've missed out so many chances that have bypassed me, thinking back, i taste remorse so bitter in my heart.
On the other hand, yesterday really made me think about what i really want myself to be like. What are the things that i really hope to accomplish in my life, what kind of person i want others to see me as. i'm looking forward to next year, even if that means i'll be facing the biggest challenge of my life at this stage. Next year, will be the beginning of everything i've missed out this year.
I WILL CATCH UP.:D

2008-12-15T14:32:00.002+08:00

Today was such a memorable day (well, at least for me and angie it was) I GOT STUCK IN THE TOILET!!!!
goodness, u will probably never believe how ridiculous it was. so here goes: me and angie went to the toilet to wash our hands, and when we wanted to step out of the toilet, i turned the door handle and the whole thing came off! just like that. it came off just like that and scared the hell out of me. i was so freaked out and even tried to pull open the door but to no avail :/ so angie stepped on the toilet bowl and shout out from the window for help but there wsa no response! thankfully, as i think due to God's grace, MISS DIONNE LEE YINING was walking along the route to the mph to get the balls for the friendly match and heard our desperate screams. So she came up and helped us open the door so we could escape from the 'toilet of doom' hahahaha. so overall, it was a really memorable day and i would rmb how pathetic and helpless i felt as i didn't have any communication devices with me.
OHOH, AND NOT FORGETTING DIONNE LEE SHOUTING 'BAI CHI' AT US BEFORE COMING TO SAVE US.HAHAHA. wait till one day you get stuck in the toilet then you know!

2008-12-14T10:29:00.003+08:00

even a thousand miles can't keep us apart/
haven't been in the mood to blog nowadays. life's been just as mundane as usual and i realised my brain is seriously deteriorating. it's working too slowly, too idly! i want my brain power back!
can't believe how fast the hols is coming to an end, this is BAD news. i haven't seem to be doing anything productive or meaningful throughout the hols. physics revision made me realised i haev so many qs to ask. But well, i think i shall wait till sch reopens to clarify my doubts. WHY is the hols coming to an end at such a fast rate?! i truly haven't been enjoying myself much and sch's going to reopen so soon! pardon me for complaining and moaning here, but it's seriously UNFAIR. they say good times pass by quickly, but would you even consider this hols to be 'good times'? i don't think so. there's so many things in life i want to catch up on, but there's nv been a chance. whilst keeping myself cooped up at home, why not catch up my friends right? still, everyone's busy with their own lives and there's just isn't a chance to meet up. SAD.
well, i'm sort of looking forward to the christmas party with netballers next friday. at least it's a chance for me to take some time off the textbooks. :/

2008-12-04T15:44:00.000+08:00

"whatever happens, know that i love you and i've really tried."

2008-11-28T18:27:00.006+08:00

HAHAHAH. :D

2008-11-28T17:01:00.003+08:00

YAY!!!!!!!
Caught wild child today with limin and dionnne :D quite a nice show, nicer than house bunny HAHA. emma roberts look prettier on screens than in covers. went to macs to eat and did jap hmwk, had to call zhiyi to clarify our doubts, hehe. trg was damn slack. no coaches came so well... rubbish game was the best. playing center with clarrissa ho rocks. she damnit funny, made me laugh until my stomach pain. Oh, and for the first time, playing center was not tired at all. HAH. Alright, i shall express my thanks here to MISS CHUA LIMIN who will be helping me create facebook :D haha, now u have no way but to help create since i've already said thanks HEHEHEHE.
DUN WORRY QING! I'M SURE YOU WILL GET WELL SOON! HEHE, I KNOW YOU ARE READING THIS :D
pictures next time, aft limin has uploaded. my usb cable is dead. rip :/

2008-11-27T16:20:00.002+08:00

chances approach the prepared minds/
ok, so i had better be prepared. :) talking to karen sim on msn is hilarious when the both of us were trying to figure out CIRCLES. haha, i declare that i can't do circles. BUT. i will master it :)
life is so mundane nowadays, i'm just practically stoning at home and doing the tons and loads of hmwk given, not to mention revision. boring, boring. i need to escape soon, yet i really don't want the next year to come, too scary.
i don't want to grow up, really. looking at the pictures, i realised how much everyone has grown, in both physical and mental. life's getting harder every moment and i do wish to go back to the times when i can get so happy with simple gifts like lollipops? i remember collecting tons of phonecards cos' i thought they looked really nice and i can't believe how much they had meant to me then.
times change, people change. none of the above seem to matter to me anymore. I WANT TIME TO REWIND ://

2008-11-22T12:16:00.002+08:00

i haven't been blogging for ages!
yeah, no mood to blog, nothing to say. but oh wells, i'm just glad that CHUA LIMIN is back from china :DD and i'm waiting for kristel to come back from chiangrai so that we can plan an outing with diana soon :) heart of gold uh! go there do voluntary work hahahah. trg yst was tiring, damn tiring. playing GD SUCKED. me and carolyn were taking turns to 'pant like a dog' at the third and fourth quarters and i really admire her perseverance to continue striving forward no matter how tired she was :) this holiday is passing by too fast, much too fast. it's already the 6th day in my precious 6 weeks holidays. :/ i need to plan out my revision time properly, or else i won't be able to complete anything.
psle results brought some surprises. i think fate/ destiny is so unpredictable. there's no way you can know what tmr holds for us. people whom i thought would fare well did not do as well as expected but well, what can you do other than accepting the truth?

2008-11-08T14:12:00.002+08:00

it's kinda hard to express how i'm feeling right now. mixed, mixed and more mixed. i can't stand it, if i still don't learn to let go things i will go crazy real soon.

2008-11-02T20:17:00.000+08:00

i wonder if all of us are really as happy as we seem to be

2008-11-01T10:05:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KRISTEL!!!!!!!!!! :D

2008-10-28T19:06:00.002+08:00

sch ended at 1 today, cos i didn't have e geog extra lessons. :) met diana at j8 to _______ hahahaha, secret, secret. then we went macs to eat and sat down to talk for a while. you know what? slowing down for a little while in your ever-busy life enables you to experience wondrous effects. it's been so long since we caught up, so long. i think the longest i've sat in macs talking about how 's life getting on and stuff was with kaien and caryl. 3 hours straight :) i seriously think nothing comes out good from my mouth. i realised all the memories my primary school friends (some) gave me was..... all i could say is that i just kept criticising, i don't know why. hahah. diana came over to study, she did her hmwk and i did mine. lol. and she doesn't have to take chinese o's this year! rawr. it's jsut next week you know! 7 more days. :/

2008-10-27T10:52:00.002+08:00

i feel weird nowadays, like something has not been completed, so i can't go out and play my hearts out. friendly with australian international on thur, trg on wed becos of that. wth, it's cca stand down now isn't it?! ://///
ranttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt :(

2008-10-15T20:54:00.002+08:00

no matter what, we'll pull you through/
eoys make ppl sad hahah. everyone's getting emotional over results. ok, here goes:
english b4 :/
higher chinese b4 :/ can get higher one lor!
e maths: a1
a maths: a1
biology: a1
chemistry:a1
physics: b3 wl, one mark to a2!
combined humans: c5 omg, faint
elit tmr, i hope it's an a! eoys totally pulled down my cummlative can. kinda disappointed? cos i tot i could do much better, seeing how much efforts i've put in. :/ going aim good results for chinese o's no matter what lol.

there's nothing we can do right now to change the situation, but still, we shouldn't give up till the last minute. there's always a chance, you never know and no matter what, we will always be here for you. you know we will try our best to pull you through no matter. so hold on to that little faith :D

2008-10-13T13:24:00.002+08:00

" i'm red, i'm red, i'm damn red. YOU WANT MY AUTOGRAPH?"
hahahaha dionne lee is freaking funny LMAO.
trg today was a killer. 8 rnds, ball work , possession :O , game and 4 SUICIDES. almost died, though i kept telling myself to go on, it's only one more! haha. almost collapse and cried when i was running the last lap for suicide. my legs were damn wobbly, pain to the max! never been so painful :/ i wonder how long i can hang on before i start to give up again, haha. but i won't! i'll try my best lah HAHAHA.

OHOH. exams scripts tmr. i dun think i need to remind anyone. am turning into an old, naggy ah ma soon.

2008-10-12T20:58:00.002+08:00

HAHAH. i don't know why i'm back BUTBUT i just read wenyi's blog and i got enlightened. HAHAHA.
she's right. she gave it her all for the exams and she hoped that no matter what the outcome will be, she would not have any regrets. actually, she's really right. i mean, i really don't deny i studied, real hard. i don't deny i gave it my all, and i don't deny i screwed all up, unknowingly, only after the papers. i wonder what was going on in my brain during the exams when i was SUPPOSED to be prepared, after all the efforts i've put in. i think i need to go for a brain scan LOL. anyway, i've just got to face the truth on tue and wed, there's no turning back, not a second chance. hais. but one good thing is that my parents are all the way behind me no matter what the result is. it seems that all the pressure i've felt comes from within me and not from them. in fact, they are alright with whatever results i got. maybe because like what caryl said, they know that i would care so they don't really care. HAH. how ironical.

2008-10-12T20:21:00.002+08:00

life's taking away all my breaths. sooner or later i'll suffocate to death./
went out with caryl and kaien today/ caught the house bunny. haha. " eyes are the nipples of the face"
i'm a super weird and irritating person. i think i pissed the both of them off today with my craps. i talk too much, i moan too much, i rant too much. but somehow, this is my way of relieving my stress, the troubles i kept in my heart for too long. but i too wonder, who would be so patient to listen to me? anyway, i really don't want to get back the exam scripts. i don't think i'll be able to take it. lol. like how the both of them said, accept what you cannot change. somehow, that's a damn difficult task for me. i just can't seem to be able to accept things readily. maybe that's the reason why when everyone's moving forward, going on with life, i'm still where i was years ago. sick and tired of everything. they say my expectations are too high. is it so? well, who doesn't want to do well. when u are weak in something, obviously you would want to do well in another area to make up for what you lack, and i'm lacking in too many areas. hmph :/
i need something to occupy me. it's just that i'm too free nowadays that i start to think too much. my head's splitting, suddenly. trg tmr, and reviewing of exams scripts on tue and wed. HELP.

2008-10-10T19:22:00.002+08:00

games day was kinda ok, quite tiring though. i felt like dozing off throughout the day, hah. I LOVE 3 GRACE !!! HAHA. 1 grace, 2 grace, 3 grace, 4 grace all have red colour class tees :D cool to the max man! this shows that grace have mo qi!
trg was good haha cos it was light. :) but i still felt tired though, i NEED to build up my stamina real soon. it's going down the drain like dunno what, even though i don't really missed the '8 rnds warm up days' hahaha.
review of exams script on tue is really going to kill me. gut feeling. :/ i hope i don't fail english, i hope i didn't screw up math, i hope i didn't screw up bio, i hope i can do well for chem as i did before :) if not, i can go bang my head against the wall. sounds familiar huh? hahaha, chua limin if u r reading this. lol. i really hope i won't screw up exams. i don't know why i'm doing so now, it's so terrible, esp when it takes up 50% of my overall results :O damn.
PRAY HARD! i'm sure going to need it :/

2008-10-08T20:29:00.004+08:00

PICS OF THE DAY:

2008-10-08T19:22:00.003+08:00

hwachong's a damn scary place. ok, i shouldn't go into details about it but i seriously think it's a place where only genius can stay. too scary.
went to bugis, orchard and ps with limin and dionne today :) bought a stretchable belt and a tank top (like finally) haha. life without exams is damn shiok. but i dun really feel like going back to train. i know it's bad but i like how life is right now and i dun want it to change. can't wait to get back results to see how WELL i've done. well done yuhui, u just have to fail english and it's good bye to ur sec four life. wish me luck man :/
i'm free tmr! and friday' s games day and trg aft that. how well does the sch treats us? give me a break man. cca straight aft the exams isn't going to make me feel any better.
life is getting better, i hope. i can't believe i actually develop symptoms of depression during exams. what's happening to me? this is the very first time i'm experiencing this kind of feeling. embrace exams, yeah right.

2008-10-06T15:13:00.002+08:00

ok, just one more down before i scream in ecstacy. EXAMS are wonderful... ahem* haha. after so long, i've finally decided to revive my blog and start my tv marathon tonight! oh my, u have no idea how much i missed it. :/ anyway, been tagged to do a quiz by MISS CHUA LIMIN. LMAO. my beloved partner who doesn't look like me now that she's cut her hair. :O
so here goes:

1.what have you been doing recently?- studying and more studying. :/ trying to get away from books, like forever!
02. Do you ever turn your cell phone off?- yep! too lazy to charge it. :P
03. What happened at 10.00am today?- was doin my a math exam, going bonkers over it?!
04. When did you last cry?-over exams, been too stressed, can't believe it i knw i'm lame.
05. Believe in fate/destiny?- sometimes?
06. What do you want in your life right now?- everything to be perfect, ok that's quite impossible
07. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood?- Rain.
08. What's your favourite thing to have on your bed?- my pillow
09. What bottom are you wearing now?- FBTS
10. What's the nicest text in your inbox say?- everything's nice. ok just kidding.
11. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?- for wat?!
12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?- Nope
13. What was the last movie you caught?- too long ago to be remembered. but shld be money no enough. lol.
14. What are you proud of?- My Family
15. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say? - Thanks! :)
16. What was the last song you sang out loud?- high school musical lol.
17.Do you have any nicknames?- too many to be mentioned, horrible friends. HAHA.
18. What does your last received text message say?- what does the coefficient of x means? ALI WANG hahaha.
19. What time did you go to bed last night?- 1130
20. Are you currently happy?- not really.
21. Who gives you best advice?- Depends.
22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?- uh no?
23. Who did you talk on phone last night?- MISS CHUA LI MIN
24. Is anything bugging you right now?- results, damn.
25. What/who was the last thing/person to make you laugh?- chua limin's hair. hahahah.
.26. Do you wear toe socks?- no
27. Who was the last person you missed a call from?- chua limin
28. Have you ever had your heartbroken?- uh yea?
29. What annoys you most in a person?- acting like someone u r not.
30. Do you have a crush on anyone?- not at the moment.
31. Have you ever done cocaine?- absolutely no
32. What is the colour of your room?- blue! i want lime green, then my mum say look like malay. tsk.
33. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollars?- No.
34. Do you believe in the saying 'talk is cheap'?- Depends.
35. Who was the last person to lie in your bed?- me
36. Who was the last person to hug you?- can't remember. lol
37. Did anyone see the last person you kissed?- uh no?! hahah nv kissed anyone!
38. Do you have a life?- then what am i doing here.
39. Have you ever thought someone died, when they really didn't?- i dreamt that someone died, and he did.
40. What is the reason behind your profile song?- No song.
41. Who was the last person you saw in your dream?- can't remember
42. Last time you smiled?- after my a maths paper!
43. Have you changed this year?- became more paranoid :/
44. What are you listening right now?- the sound of rain
45. Are you talking to someone when you doing this?- my mother
46. Do you walk with your eyes open or closed?- asking the obvious
47. Is there a quote you live by?- many.
48. Do you want someone you cannot have?- no.
49. Have you ever played an instrument?- i'm a total musical instruments' idiot
50. What was the worst idea you've had in this week?- pon school so i don't have to take exams
51. What were you doing last night at 11pm?-reading
52. Are you happy with your love life right now?- nah. lol
53. What song best describe your love life?- empty! hahah.
54. Does the person know that you like him/her?- pls refer to above
55. Who always make you laugh?- chua li min
56. Do you speak languages other than english?- i'm bilingual! hahah, maybe even more than that :D
57. Favourite website(s)?- many.
58. What's your middle name?- nothing
59. What are you doing tomorrow?- scream cos it's the end of exams after going to school for 45 mins to take the paper. LIT U BETTER NOT SCREW ME
60. What do you think you are like?- too weird
61. Who will you choose to die with?- my husband lmao
62. Where have you been today?- jus came back from school
63. What game do you play often?- many
64. Who are you missing right now?- my tv
65. If you had to chose between a friend and a love, who will you chose?- depends
66. What are you doing right now?- this stupid quiz.
67. Which primary school are you from?- HMPS
.68. Name 3 colours that you like?- green, white, blue
69. What emotion do you like to show?- roll my eyes!
70. What is your life to you?- something i want to believe in
71. If you have something troubling you, what will you do?- RANT
72. Who did you last chat with on msn today?- karen sim
73. Who do you admire most?- me hahahah
74. Which month were you born in?- april
75. How are you feeling right now?- mixed emotions.
76. What is the time now?- 3.36 pm
77. What kind of person do u think the one who tagged you is?- uh, not someone u would want to trifle with. LOL
78. What colour did you use to dye hair?- my hair's naturally black
79. Why are you doing this test?- thanks to chua li min
80. What do you do when you're moody?- black face, break down, hah but not that easy though.
81. At which age you wish to get married?- before 30
82. Who is more important to you?- family
.83. If today is the last day of your life, what will you do?- be with my family
84. Who is the person you trust the most?- parents
85. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain?- that's common sense
86. If you have a dream come true, what would it be?- everything perfect, like real
87. What is your goal for this year?- do well for everything?
88. Do you believe in eternity love?- yep
89. What feeling do you love most?- happiness
90. Do you really think its Global Warming now?- Yeah,
91. What feeling do you hate the most?- regrets
. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?- i want to
93. Do you believe in God?- of course
94. Who cares for you most?- family, friends
95. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?- FAMILY, FRIENDS, :) STUDIES (LOL)
96. What will you bring when you fight?- definitely not myself
97. What have you done regretted doing in your whole life?- don't want to mention it again
98. What would you do if no one cared for you any longer?- no way man
99. What if your boyfriend/girlfriend two-timed you?- no turning back
100. HOW DO U FEEL NOW?- mixed

2008-08-24T14:59:00.002+08:00

i must be insane. it's less than a month to eoys and what am i doing? using the computer, talking, slacking, eating, sleeping anything that doesn't have to do with studying, that's what i'm doin now. i wonder where has all my "chiongness" went to. :// find me find me! cos i'm just to lazy to even go and find u -.- but well, can't blame me? cos the sch haven't even give us out exam schedule yet so yep, i dunno what to study for, like real. oh dear, i better get back t my bao zhang bao dao and my bio ct paper now, dinner tonight for LAOPA's earliated birthday :D sch tmr :/
trg's goin to be boring. 2 MORE TRGS TO CCA STAND DOWN! how great. no more 8 rnds no more suicides. watch me. i'm just gonna die when cca resumes :(

2008-08-24T12:08:00.002+08:00

this blog's gonna rot rot and rot. i'm gonna close it down sonner or later. no one's viewing anyway. oh yst's jap lesson was fun :D as usual. ME AND LIMIN MET STEVEN LIM ON THE STREETS WHEN WE CAME OUT OF SHAW HOUSE. WTH?! N HE WANTED TO DO A SURVEY WITH US BUT WE SIAMED! HAHA. HIS QS WAS LIKE " ARE YOU'LL MALAYS OR CHINESE? " !@#$%^& WTH! ANYHOW SAY. WE GOT SO TANNED MEH! I THINK HE BLIND ALRD LUH. TSKTSK. IT WAS A FUNNY DAY.
n i feel as if i'm falling sick once again ://

2008-08-16T22:17:00.002+08:00

flag day was... kinda ok? quite fun, much better than the hearts street sales which sucked like hell. i understand why people think it's more practical to donate for flag day than to buy a toy keychain that costs you six dollars. even though it's for the charity but well....
i think caryl and me have serious mental problems. but caryl's ones seem much scarier. :O i realised that i love talking to caryl. she's so calm, sensible, disciplined and always know what to say to analyse the whole situation. I HOPE MRS YEO DON'T CHANGE OUR SEATS! pls, i wanna seat with caryl! :/ i will definitely miss talking to her, well cos she's one of the people i trust talking to. don't you think she has a very honest face? haha, special friend. :D
trg's getting slack, n i don't knowif i should just let it go. i mean, one problem with me is that i jsut can't leave my emotions and everything that has happened on court, i bring it wherever i go. that's real bad.

2008-08-12T15:34:00.003+08:00

this is real bad. i lost my ability to sleep yst night. i went to bed at 12am and only fell asleep at 4am. to make things worse, i feel even more energetic than i usually do despite sleeping for only 2 hrs. :(((( i'm an insomianiac! :////
i sure hope i will fall asleep tonight. if not i'm gonna die!!!! haha.
physics spa was ok i think. not difficult, just read through your previous expts can alrd :D

2008-08-09T15:52:00.002+08:00

Embrace what you cannot change

HOHO. I'M FINALLY BACK. Computers are the most irritating machines on Earth. Sometimes i just wished that we will not be so relient on these machines. they may be convenient but they can be absolutely irritating and gets on my nerves all the time :/

Chemistry retest is BAD news. real bad. i was hoping that this news would not break but somehow the worst just happens when you don't want them to :/

National day celebration was a total waste of time. my excitement just went down to drain when the teachers asked us to go back to school. damn it stupid luh! stoning under the hot sun for many hours waiting for the moment that would never come is plain stupid.

I miss trg. do i? actually i don't really know too. i feel disappointed in myself, disppointed with how everything has turned out to be. i'm tired but life has never been sweet huh? :/

2008-07-15T16:23:00.002+08:00

RECAP :D

Saturday: OSIM TRIATHLON :DDDDD woke up at 4, chionged there to find the irritated dionne who was the first to reach. :p teamed with DAPHNE! waited from 7 to 10 plus for the race to start, so we started talking abt alot of things. :) i love talking to daphne!!!! haha. being run marshals was fun fun!!! i think it's better than manaul timing, it's more inspiring and everything. :) went for jap lesson after that- as fun as usual. :) meet up with daphne aft that, ate and went to my hse for sleepover! :D very fun, but we were too tired to move so we slept early. :) it was a really fun day.

Sunday: woke up at 4 again, chionged to ecp, to find dionne who was the first to reach, again. lol. today's triathlon was more tired cos there were more ppl taking part, so we had to stay until 4 plus instead of 3, waiting for the last man to reach us. :p haha. daphne even cried cos she missed home too much and i complained to say hong saying i won't come for osim triathlon again, haha. I TAKE BACK MY WORDS OK! oh and daphne was angry with limin (for a while) cos she didn't prepare the cip form then scared cannot get the hours. :s haha. she was screaming at limin thru the phone and peter was like: " woah, ur friend very fierce leh" hahahaha. bused home and slept like pig. :/

Monday: I LOVE TRG, I REALLY DO. I WANT TO THANK ALL THE TRIATHLITES FOR MAKING ME SO INSPIRED AND I TOLD MYSELF NOT TO GIVE UP EVEN WHEN I FEEL REALLY TIRED BECAUSE OF THE SPIRIT U ALL HAVE SHOW DURING THE RACE. I MEAN, HOW CAN I SAY ALL THE WAY TO U ALL AND GIVE UP ON MYSELF?! AND U ALL HAD KEPT GOING TILL THE END FOR 10 KM, WHAT'S 3.2 KM ABOUT THEN? :P WOOHHOO, SO I TAKE BACK MY WORDS TO SAY HONG. I WILL DEFIENITELY GO BACK TO VOLUNTEER FOR OSIM TRIATHLON! TRG ROCKS. I LOVE TRG ON MONDAY. IT'S THE BEST TRG EVER. I LOVE TEAM SN! <3

Tuesday: hehehe. just came back from olevel chinese lc exam. thought it was quite ok though most ppl said it was difficult and everyone's answer were like different?! rawr. hope that i'm correct, cos i have confidence in my answers. :)

2008-07-10T14:53:00.002+08:00

trg was screwed yst. :/ screwed to the max man! :///
pesta teams were out. frankly saying, i'm quite disappointed. i tot when he said he wanted to mix the sec 3s and 2s tgt, he meant mixing the positions too. but turn out, hais, disappointing that's it. i understood when he was so angry yst, well who wasn't? if we continue with this kind of standard, i think we don't have to compete in the zonals anymore. come on, there's no need to embarrass ourselves. played like crap. i'm very dissatisfied with myself. this suck. it was probably the most demoralising trg ever.

how i wish that one day, i'll be able to post a happy, satisfied post on trg...

2008-07-06T13:29:00.003+08:00

no matter what, nothing's gonna tear us apart

7 is definitely the Y. they made my day, they're the best! :D one conclusion when 7 goes out tgt: NEVER EVER EAT TGT AGAIN. JUST GO OUT TO PLAY, TALK, CAMWHORE. ABSOULTELY NO EATING. hahahah. bill was horrendous. $181.14 at pizzahut for dinner. i think this is the very first time i've eaten such an expensive dinner. :O but, it was fun:D haha.
jap lesson was funny, though disappointing that gay didn't come :/ aww....
kamera= camera, and not hurry up in dialect.
fukutsu= fax machine and not fuck you HAHAHAHAH. I LAUGHED TILL I CRIED. :p
jap is very very fun. :P i love it. <3

the world goes topsy-turvy when we are together <3

2008-07-04T22:55:00.002+08:00

the kind of flawless i wished i can be

bah. i screwed up my bio test once again. :/ why did i have to go and change my answer when it was correct in the first place? just how dumb can i get. pls have more confidence in yourself, damn. recess was caryl's campiagn :D funfun. but it was rather embarrassing though! :p haha. trg was boring as usual, until the seniors came and we had fun once again! i missed them :/ how i wished mr yeo can think of some interesting things to do. running 8 rnds is far too boring. we were so motivated to run at first is becos it was something new and challenging, hence we wanted to challenge ourselves to finish it. but aft running for 3 times a wk for almost one yr, it gets like super BORING. well, u might be thinking how can u ever be bored running, but that's how i feel. :/ sometimes even when u have the stamina to finish it, u just can't be bothered cos it's too mundane for words. :/ today was an emotional day. the 7 was so sad and disappointed in our performances and limin/partner cried. :( dun take it to hard k? u r putting too much pressure on urself. :/ mr yeo said the grpings for pesta is that he mixed the sec 2 and 3s tgt. :/ now the 7 have to be separated. :///// hais. why can't we get what we want when we've finally decided to work tgt as a team to acheive something? i mean, it's really a long way before we came this far, to be so united (maybe not all) but yah, we 're all working towards a common goal.

i want things to be the way i want them.

2008-07-02T20:03:00.003+08:00

when things don't wanna go ur way.

congratulations, yuhui. for screwing up oral. :/ damn it lah! the passage was ok at first, but how was i suppose to know i was going to stammer over that four irritaingly words that sounded alike?! RAWR. i'm such a failure. topic was... -.- inflation. hais. i really don't know what was the reason so i just crapped up one and the teacher FROWNED at me. :o( damn damn damn. so after that i became so nervous i totally forgot abt the structure and just said anything that came to my mind. :/ content was ok i suppose cos she only asked one qs. damn fast lah! but i think my structure all was a big mess. :////////
damn it dead meat. there goes my distinction.

2008-06-29T10:43:00.005+08:00

you're every minute of my every day

jap lesson yst was humourous. there's this gay person in the class, like seriously gay!!! haha. the way he talks just makes me wanna laugh. but that's not the end. the way he walks is the max man. shakes his butt like a dunno what! i've nv seen a man walked like this exaggerating. even a woman dun walk like this lah! hahaaha. oh n when i was supposed to ask him for his age, he actually replied ' himitsu' which means it's a secret. wth luh. also not woman why must be so scared that ppl will know ur age. tsktsk. hahahah. Limin hopes that he would come again. he makes the lesson just extra interesting. :]

open house was extra boring. only a few parents were interested in subjects. most of them went off to the cca side. :/ xue kun was damn hyper lol. so boring yet she can be so high. also dun know what's with her. :]

trg on fri was hahaha. didn't train much cos we had to do the last minute preparation for open house. typical sec threes luh. always the last minute type. :/ yeo was damn angry with the sec ones. i think he was controlling himself so as not to scare the sec ones to death. me n yingqi went around taking pics to put on the board and saw that well, the game was indeed nt very sastifactory. :/ played one game with the sec twos later. best combi :D just that dionne and limin had to leave half way to help with the board. :/ me n yingqi damn sad! we got no mo qi alrd.
:((( cos we started playing mr yeo's way then we forgot to help each other guard. ://// nvm. work harder on it! :)passes was finally ok that day. i managed to pass my gk throw in:DD yay. pls let trg to be as constructive and productive as it is now. :D

PICTURES!

2008-06-22T13:49:00.002+08:00

falling sick on the last day of hols is terrible. TERRIBLE it is did i mention?
didn't go to dionne's hse today cos i really don't feel well. drowsy, headache and not to mention an extremely PARCHED throat. :/ sorry to dionne and ur aunt! :(
jap lesson yst :D funfun. i'm really looking forward to it every week. :D limin was retarded yst. we signed the attendance file and the room stated was 24. but when we went in, it was a grp of unfamiliar faces. then she thought we were in the wrong room. haha. but turn out it was just that they were other students from the other classes. :o
bev's hse to do proj was rather unproductive i guess? we really didn't know how to answer that ridiculous qs. but well, with bev and low ann the english pros, the ppt still turn out rather
cheem :P
lessons and trg tmr. i wonder how am i going to survive with my condition now. can't breathe :/
well, hope that mr yeo won't make it tough tmr, aft 2 wks of rest i think my stamina now is crap. RWAR. 2 wks of rest and i have to fall sick on the last day of hols. :(
GOALS FOR TMR:
-finish 8 rnds under may's crazy pace.
-attack properly during possession game: rawr must try to get free from clara the sticky glue:/
-work on passes!!!
-defend better with yingqi!!!! :D

GET WELL SOON YUHUI. :/

2008-06-15T14:24:00.002+08:00

JAP LESSON WAS DA BOMB MAN!!!!!!!! HEHEHE. I'M STARTING TO LOVE JAP, HOPE THAT THIS ENTHUSIASM WILL NOT WANE IN TIME TO COME! :P
went orchard yst with limin/partner:D for jap lesson at the shaw building. lol. funfun. the teacher is a very nice and friendly person :D
hajimemashite, watashiwa yuhui desu. dozo yoroshiku! :DDD
went for jiajie's 21st bdae party aft that. bored man. just sat there listen to them sing kbox. and the songs there damn old. they like nv put in all the new ones. :/
suppose to do lit proj today but.... shan't comment.
going dionne's hse for oral nxt tue. RAWR. damn scared. later i go there n stone dun understand what's the topic. :O

2008-06-12T15:10:00.002+08:00

WOOHOOO! cip was fun but tiring. i totally literally fell on the bed and slept like a pig when i got home. so tired.........
it was a bad night before the cip. i couldn't sleep, too energised for dunno what reasons. woke up at 630 the next day, bathed, then rushed out to meet dionne. :D THEN. started to rain. oh damn sad luh! we thought the trip was going to be cancelled as sarah called to say she was the only one at the cc! oh dear. but ended up they were meeting at another place and sarah didn't know hahaha. :) yep so we took the bus to zoo and meet the kids. :D joined sarah's grp cos we didn't know the others and didn't want to ask chris abt it. hahaha. fun fun. then there was this irritating girl who took me n sarah as her miad. ttsktsk. anyway, found out her name in the end even though she did not want to tell us at first. wth luh. then there's CHOW WEI who is super cute and pretty. ahaha. she kinda reminds me of diana when she was young! :D ohoh. not forgetting the KSC!!!! hahahaha. super funny. sarah n dionne would know what it means. lol. our wonderful sarah n kristin, he's missing u all so much! hahaha. then there's this super poser guy- future break dancer- and i mean it. hahah. check out his wonderful pose at dionne's blog, if she had posted it up. :P
yay! i love doin cip with the henderson cc. :DDD but can't make it for nxt wk's discovery centre though. doin the street sales at orchard. :( i want to go fot the former one. D:

2008-06-02T14:59:00.002+08:00

i think my mum's seriously damn funny. was doing my math hmwk yst night and she was like:
" eh. i see u do hmwk like everyday leh! do you have a life?! how come other like so slack then u got so many things to do?"
ME: "aiya, they dun care mah. blame the sch luh. holiday also not like holiday. >.<
MUM: went to switch off the tv and said:" wah. u dun even have the time to watch tv alrd ah. still rmb when u were in pri sch, everyday sit in front of the tv. then ur dad will go n tell others: "WAH. MY DAUGHTER VERY PRO ONE LEH. NEXT DAY GOT EXAMS SHE SIT IN FRONT OF THE TV AND WATCH UNTIL MIDNIGHT." hahahaha. omg damn funny. laugh like crap. where got luh! i got study one lor! :p at least better than miss helena pau, who told me that when she was in pri sch, her mum asked her: " eh. what's ur exam tmr? " GUESS WHAT'S HER REPLY?! damn funny i tell u.
HELENA: " I DON'T KNOW." lol! she even worse than me! :D

2008-06-02T14:50:00.002+08:00

AND AGAIN AFTER SO LONG.
trg was horrendous today. didn't finished 8 rnds cos the pace was too inconsistent. i hate running at the back. it's always jogging pace initially n sprinting in the end cos the middle ppl will lag at first n try to catch up in the end, suck luh. medicine ball aft that i think i'm getting immune to it, which is good of cos. slope didn't kill me, surprisingly. it felt ok. then we were separated into grps to do our own ball drills which was ok again, well cos it was quite slack. STUPID YINGQI KEEP BULLYING ME! :p oh then we played game against the sec ones, for once. played like crap but dionne kept saying i bully meryl where got luh. i damn blur can. :((((( SUICIDE was REALLY suicide. felt like killing myself when i was running. can't breathe! damn tired. the after effects was even worse. nv felt so terrible before. :(
don't think it's going to get better on wed. well, hang on that's the only way. i'm fully prepared for 8 rnds, prepared to try to finish it, well unless the pace changes if not it's quite impossible, considering today's result. RAWR.

2008-05-21T22:00:00.001+08:00

com just back after sent for repair. n guess what? EVERYTHING GONE. MSN, WORD, PPT PICS, SONGS, BYE BYE BYE. would any kind soul want to help me in setting up all these stuff ? -.- pISSED!

2008-05-13T20:28:00.002+08:00

com getting a bit siao nowadays. it just keep shutting off by it's own and applications can't be run. :/ i seriously need a new com soon but dun think dad would get a new one cos it's too ex. this stupid com has worse moodswings than mine. :/ anyway, i can't wait for june hols to come. mugging, shopping, sleeping and not forgetting to catch up with those who r dearly missed :D school's been upsetting. the tests sucked and i screwed them up terrribly. :((( trg was as usual, was disappointed in myself yst. totally not on form?! played like crap and the ss test today just made it worse. well, i shall work on my passes tmr during trg. it was so terrible, i CAN'T pass. :(
gonna train hard, hard! haha. voting tmr, n dionne shall be crown CAPTAIN :DDD yayyayay! june hols, come quickly! i wanna go bestie's new hse! tsktsk. move hse also nv tell me heh! lol. :) i want partyyyy! :p

2008-05-02T20:50:00.002+08:00

it's only been a week, a week since camp has passed and my thoughts are in a huge mess once again. :/i don't know what to say abt the team, or maybe i was just thinking too much into it. my back ache since napfa has worsen terribly, like seriously. it was only the lower back on tue, then it spread to my upper thigh today and NOW, somewhere near my appendix there. :( i can't run now cos it's like damnit pain?! i dunno why but once i run the piercing pain just hit me so freaking hard. :( and i seriously have no idea how this even happened. didn't finished the 8 rnds cos my thigh was too painful. and i just wonder why he wasn't even understanding enough to believe that i really had pushed myself to the limit such that, i have problems even walking now. i'm damn scared do yknow? like really, really scared that i won't be able to run ever again, won't be able to do sports ever again. this is when i realise how impt sports is in my life. i wonder how am i goin to live without it if my condition continues to worsen. ://///

2008-04-30T21:05:00.007+08:00

she wants to go home, and nobody's home. that's where she lies, broken inside.

life's been great nowadays, except that there's an amath test coming up on fri which i'm very afraid i'm goin to screw it up again. napfa yst. i wouldn't say i'm disappointed in myself, but i felt i could have done better. i certainly hadn't pushed myself to the maximum. but oh wells, be thankful with wht i have :D

bdae was seriously da bomb. went out with besties and got a super nice pencil case! thanks alot alot. <3>

had a heart to heart talk with ms rockey and the team today. somehow our attitude towards trg was totally off and wrong. i would say that the team isn't really bonded, it's true but somehow i just couldn't list out the reasons why. we tried hard today, even though it felt damn weird at first, but i really hope this will last and not short-lived. i just felt quite emotional thinking that it's not that you do not want to give ur best in trg. it's just that sometimes when u felt u've given ur everything, the coaches just feel it's not enough and u r certainly not performing. sometimes i really wonder where my standard is in other ppl's eyes. n i jsut get affected too easily by simple comments esp when i tot i had given my best, they still think i've not, i'm slacking. i wonder at times, what kind of impression i give others and it's during these times that i feel really demoralised, that no matter how hard you've tried, nothing works out. is getting into the sch team really that impt? is that the goal everyone's working towards? n smths i wonder and wonder, all that regconition, all that fame, is it really that impt aft all? shouldn't we train hard and give in our best becos we want to, because netball's our PASSION. it's the passion word we're talking abt here. REFLECT, REFLECT. :)

pictures loaded :DDDD

retards unite!!!!! yayayayay! :D

every memory of looking out the back door, i have a photo album spread out on my bedroom floor

2008-04-26T14:18:00.004+08:00

SEC 3 LEADERSHIP CAMP :D
i'm finally back, tired, sleepy, absolutely worn out but matured :)
yao xing told us to not forget the learning experience we had there so i decided to pen it all down here as a reflection :)
FIRST DAY:
went to school, had briefing and were introduced to the VERY FUN instructors. and i still have to say that my grp's instructor,yao xing seriously look like a malay hahah when he was 100% chinese. :p embarked on the journey to st john's island. sat the ferry ride which i enjoyed alot alot. :) reached the island and were introduced to our dorms- africa's hospital beds. hahahaha. had AMUSING RACE which required us to run around st john's isalnd completing the tasks given to forge teambonding among the class. rather fruitful experience. bathing time sucked. lol. the water was like super COLD and the walls were like super low. so for me, i had to bend my knees all the way down in order not to be seen naked by the person beside me and also not to see the person beside me naked too when i stand cos i could practically see everyone bathing when i stood up -.- dinner was the worst dinner ever. had many many best friends accompanying us and everyone was screaming like hell. branderna was damnit funny. killed all our bfs and congregate their bodies tgt for burial under the spoons. :p night programme was KIDNAPPED. apparently they kidnapped a person from each grp and we had to guess the number to the keys we were supposed to get in order to unlock and save the people. then had to carry the person back when we found them. lol. arms almost broke. back was like damn pain lah, too much strain. slept on the beach beds and woke up in the morning to find two HUGE bed bug bites on my thigh. :(
SECOND DAY:
water rafting was rather boring. it was low tide and hence we could not go out to the sea. :( played some stupid game which ended up in me scolding f words all the way. please luh, we were like the only grp playing by the rules and those___________ were damn irritating. what the hell is ur problem pls. forgot abt it aft that as yx said "so long as we played by the rules, it's ok" :) played multi- level captain's ball which looked like rugby to me. everybody was so VIOLENT. siao one luh. partner fell! got 2 white spots! scare me luh! take care:) accidentally threw thw ball on belinda's face. too kanchiong alrd. SORRY:( didn't mean it. felt damn guilty. :( then had casualty challenge and the casualty was the DUSTBIN. -.- carried it arnd the island and had to find items with names from a to z. woah tiring back almost died. damn painnnn! CAMPFIRE WAS DA BOMB. it's the only thing i look forward to in camps :) then had ending session with yx. most touching moments ever. his words made me thought back on alot of things, things that i had missed in the past, the regrets i could never make up for. as sufang said ' he's the first guy who made me cried' i wouldn't deny that. he's the first guy who made me cried with only his words. it was sad to know that a person like him, who seemed so carefree and hyper in front of everyone else, was someone who had been through a lot, alot. i do not know if it was a mask that he was wearing in front of everyone else or was it that he was really strong and took everything in his stride. i couldn't believe when he said he lost a fren in a car accident and how regretful he felt, those words that were left unsaid. i was shocked when he told us he failed his n level and had to go to ite, unable to choose his fav subject he wanted to study all along in poly. however, he did not gave up and worked very hard, finally fulfilling his dream, achieving his goal today. and somehow at this point, i felt so lost. he had failed at first, but he persevered to achieve his goal and he succeeded. what abt me? i do not even have a goal in my life. i just realised i don't even know what am i working so hard for. why am i studying so hard, mugging and striving to get good grades when i don't even know what am i doin this for and where this will lead me to in the end. i don't know where i'm heading, i'm just blindly doin what i am suppose to do as a good student. what's the whole point abt anyway, when u don't even have a goal to work towards. what's all the hard work for. i've never felt so lost. so many ppl ended in tears and he tried to say lame things to lighten the atmosphere. lol. funny luh. slept really well that night. perhaps i was really tired aft all that activities.
THIRD/ LAST DAY:
clearing up at the beach. scenery was damn nice. i want to come here for trg. seriously. i would be in a clearer state of mind and would be able to focus well. :) left the island, lots n lots of memories. i think the class is quite bonded. jia you bah. we can make the best class ever. :D you dian she bu de, but life has got to move on. aft 3 days at the campsite, i felt more calm and matured. it's like all the thoughts are straighten out and we were really far, far away from the hectic school life. well, and now we are back. lit test on mon, napfa 2.4 on tue, tingxie on wed, amaths test which i have lots of difficulties in on fri. :/ still trying to find my goal in life, before it's too late. just yx said again, you nv know what's goin to take place tmr, so treasure today. am i ready to face the challenge? i'm still finding the answer. maybe one day i'll be able to say "YES". and when will that day come.
CHEERS:
nerdy looking specs
books in one hand
the chessclub was looking at her
she read her books
next thing you know
she's got full full full full full full marks
baggy pinafore n the socks very low
kena scolded by vp mrs goh
she bu shuang scold
next thing you know
her belt got low low low low low low low low
( LOW by flo-rida feat. T-pain)

they can take tmr n the plans we made, they can take the music that we'll nv play. All the broken dreams, with everything. just take it away, but they can nv have yesterday.

2008-04-15T16:01:00.006+08:00

show all the money you've got :D

SEC ONE ORIENTATION WHICH CAME REALLY LATE BUT WAS FUNNNNN:D

so monday's trg was replaced by sec one orientation which left behind much laughter and memories:)

played double wacko, then the pass the card game which ws so funny cos the loser grp had to pass the gambling cards using their lips so everyone were "kissing" with one another. yingqi and daph especially pro worh. hahahah. too experienced alrd o.O

then it was the super gross game where we had to dip our head into the pail half full of water and used our mouth to suck out the mentoes STUCK underneath. wth luh. so disgusting. Scavenger hunt was... rather tiring n not really exciting cos the time given was quite short. then we come to the food part: EEWWWWWW. mind you.

banana, two pieces of biscuits, lots of green peas, wasabi, soya sauce, tomato sauce, yoghurt ALL MIXED TGT. i wonder who didn't lausai when they get home. eat until want to puke :/

Pictures <3

Limin :D

And again :)

funniest junior ever :D clarrissa, u owned.

love this team :))))

2008-04-06T19:24:00.004+08:00

don't lose out on ur faith, everyone's here for you, wherever you may be
In your eyes i see the unwillingness to let go, the clear indication u do not want to leave everything behind and move on. i tried to accept this fact, that this is a part and parcel of life, a phase everyone has to go through. But when i saw u tearing, your eyes turning red, the pain l felt in my heart really seemed like a deep cut, a big slash. u couldn't let go. u know that the time has come, u r trying to accept it but u still feel sad, miserable. i know it's hard, u wanted to say so much but u can't. those words, no one could make out what u mean and i sensed a sense of desperation in your eyes when eventually, u gave up. even when i'm typing this now, my heart goes out for u, my heart tears for the tears that had fallen from ur eyes. the same kind of pain, a second time. i wouldn't let this become a deep regret in my life, i'm never going to make the same mistake i did the first time. the pain was so hard to bear, but time has proven that wounds would heal along with it. i finally experienced how a person would feel at the brim of death, when u know everything's coming to an end. keep faith, believe in life after death. who knows? it may be a bliss, for this the life God has given us.

2008-04-04T20:56:00.002+08:00

when life gets tough, hang on. No one told u life was sweet :/
maybe it's really time to let go. learn to let go. this is a phase everyone has to go through. a little pain, some tears, time will amend them. :)

2008-03-31T13:17:00.002+08:00

tests coming up: E MATHS + A MATHS, ELECT HISTORY, ENGLISH LIT :/
i'm proud of my time management :) i spaced everything out so well i have one hour to use the com :D haha
feista was quite.... i think it was better 2 years ago, more fun n everything. this year's one was so freaking hot. games stall did well, i think. there were so many customers everyone got so irritated. :/
went home to receive shocking news. :( i know he will be alright. i really don't wanna experience the same kind of pain a second time. it's too hard to bear, so pray hard everyone.

2008-03-20T17:47:00.003+08:00

week one's been great. nothing much has taken place except that the b div lost the first match to nanhua. :( which means they really have to beat rgs to get into the nxt rnd. sad. had a maths test which was a really easy paper but i got careless mistake again. sian. 7 more tickets to sell. i was kind enough not to return any tickets to the sch n now they are asking each of us to contribute another 10 dollars . wth. i'm just not going to do so. not to i'm mean or what but i still have 70 dollars worth of tickets. u can have them back n get the rest of the sch to contribute 20 dollars each then. :(
in the mood to chiong studies nowadays n i'm really glad with this progress. :D shit lah. chinese prelim oral only weeks away. :(

2008-03-14T18:11:00.003+08:00

carelle n elle came over for studying session today! :D

never felt so accomplished. physics wksht, a maths assignment DONE. hahaha. congrats me man. :D

maths n physics can make ppl go insane. we witness it today!

we're really hardworking, really

2008-03-13T14:00:00.002+08:00

all the a maths assignments are driving me crazy. idk how to do a single qs. ec curriculum doesn't seem that attractive now. :( i'm dying from all that pile of hmwk n the promise i made to CHIONG during the march hols isn't taking effect at all. the assignments just took up all of my time. i wouldn't say i'm rotting at home just because i didn't go out with friends during this period of time for there are just too many things for me to complete, they are driving me insane. physics is seriously a subject i can't handle, n wth is VECTOR ADDITON?! my whole wksht is a piece of blank paper, god. there's absolutely no time to revise anything n my dad just commented that i was CRAZY to be studying during the march hols. like i want luh! it's not my fault the sch's insane n like wat mr teoh said, the competition among the ec classes is so intense n close, there's not a minute to lose. well, let's continue with that spirit, n have i told u i spent 2 whole hrs thinking of how to solve 2 amaths qs?! someone, come kill me now.

n we break up to make up right away/

2008-03-11T19:25:00.003+08:00

HOHO HELLO, LOVE :D
i missed you badly): are we going out this march hols, no? D: i see you with freaking smart guys lol i bet you enjoyed yourself, yay. rah talk and shopping soon(: we've a hell lot to catch up with yeah(:

P.S. look, this has became your blog :D hoho a blog of your own(: through our unscrupulous means and attempts to get you to not be lazy and have a blog of your own hoho. oh yes.

Y guesswho(:

i made 3attempts before getting in okay >:/

2008-03-10T19:39:00.000+08:00

****. i'm not wrong. u seriously can trust my intuition. she's really back.

2008-03-09T11:55:00.010+08:00

ok,done. n if u r sharp enough to notice, I CUT MY HAIR. hahahaha.

i love partner :D

2008-03-09T11:30:00.006+08:00

dun worry! we'll miss you guys, really :D

2008-03-07T21:20:00.002+08:00

end of hc-sn exchange programme. i'll miss you guys! :) haha.
i bet benji's going to miss neon. both of them bicker non-stop everyday. tsktsk. come da qin ma qiao in front of me luh! hahaha.
cca tour today was crap. netball trg cancelled. :( had a very small farewell party but left early in the end cos i see no sense in staying there. damn boring luh, nothing to do n carelle pang seh me to go hockey. :/
in conclusion, i must say i enjoyed the whole exchange programme. quite fruitful n fun luh. BENJI'S DAMN SMART. ok. correction. ALL HCI GUYS ARE FREAKING SMART. what's their problem man, hahaha. helped me alot during lessons so i must say a thank you to benjamin. :D
hahah. took many photos! memories mah. lol. nick kee's a camwhore! hahah.
lin lao shi's voice was damn gay today. i think he got sore throat or smth. he's voice was super funny can. laughed till i almost rolled when he opened his mouth to speak.
and u know wat? i can't stand girls who try to act guniang in front of guys. it just turns me off. like what's ur problem? can't u jsut be yourself n stop acting like somebody your're not? pls luh. u r not a least bit graceful i must say. N stop trying to act cool cos you're not, stop trying to dao other people becos it will only make others hate you even more.
i can't stand the way you are.

2008-03-03T20:51:00.002+08:00

call me dead meat because i am one now.
euh. sch is .. bad. after one week in hc, i found out i had so much to catch up. like seriously, crap.
HOW!!!! maths is the worse man. i missed out so much i dunno where to start. someone help luh. HELP. i'm calling.
english descriptive sucks. i can't describe like dunno wat hell. did so badly. i dun think i can face my ppr this term. i bet it's going to be the lowest i will ever get in my whole sec life. :( goodness.
going to chiong during march hols. NO MATTER WAT. oh. n cip. help i need hours. call me for cip k.haha.
today's matches were really great. felt like crying too when the b'div game ended. we lost, by 3. they played real well though. close game. :( pls luh. the gk is like SUPER DUPER TALL. she just raise her hand can catch the loop, mind you, she didn't even jumped. :/
juniors played well, really well. i bet yeo's real proud of them luh. expression writtten all over his face. lol! sng ying was in top form can. played damn well. NICELY! :)
i dun look forward to the week. mainly cos there's going to be a lot of catching up to be done, homework, retaking of tests (I HOPE NOT!!!) and of cos the issuing of ppr. sucks.

i've really had enough of the times when you were here. i hope my nightmare's not going to come true, no more of those tortures you brought to me. i've tried my best to forgive and forget. Frankly saying, it's not working.

2008-03-01T09:32:00.002+08:00

HCI exchange at hwachong was really FUN, mind you. Not just the fact that we were able to miss 3 tests was pleasant, i really Y their school. Big, nice, elegant and any other positive adjectives you can think of. (:
Programmes organised i must say is a thousand times better than what we have planned for them in st nicks. hahaha. LESSONS EVERYDAY. congrats, congrats.
cross country was.... hahah. the guys seemed to be really afraid of losing to girls. Seeing them slacking and choinging when they saw we had overtook them was.... indeed a funny sight. tsktsk. egoistic. hahaha. jkjk.
Aphelion night was seriously DA BOMB! Hci boys are really VERY TALENTED. (: the performances were entertaining and impressive. :) all was well except for the fact that we had screwed up our dance item, again. -.-
Dragon boating was needless to say, FUN FUN FUN. i love it man! getting splashed and rowing the boat was FUN!!! hahahah. time flies, like one week is over. And the upcoming is a hard and boring week at st nicks. I'VE GOT A LOT TO CATCH UP, like seriously. pray hard we're not retaking any of the tests. if not i'll just drop dead. :/
n can you believe it? i miss trg. can't wait to go back and witness for myself how much my standard and not to say stamina, has deteroriated, again. :/

2008-02-24T12:23:00.002+08:00

in this ever changing day, you're the one thing that remain

Cj7 was DA BOMB!!!!! omg. i Y stephen chow, xu qiao!!!!!!!!!!!! wahhhh. damn nice! :)

out with seet yst. :) fun fun. seet dressed likea fairy hahaha. i was of cos the normal one. lol. seet claims she has different taste from normal ppl. tsktsk. abnormal can.

caught the movie at amk hub then headed to bugis!

shopshop. shopping cures depression hahaha.

bought two shirts! one for limin's bdae present, one for myself.

SEET BOUGHT A BLACK TUBE. woah. -emphasise- hahaha. the auntie damn bian tai. scared seet dunno how to wear, she HELP HER WEAR! omg. then touch here touch there. EEEE! pervert. hahaha.

I want to buy black skinnies! buybuybuy.

if he could have been revived after dying through the same way, why didn't you? miss you.

2008-02-17T15:58:00.002+08:00

it's school tmr again. n i'm tired. mood totally spoilt on friday. screwed up lit test very badly. :( n there's a bio n msnd test nxt wk again. oh god. can someone help me.

the world's turning, so why are you still here?

2008-02-14T15:07:00.002+08:00

will you be my valentine?:D

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY EVERYBODYYYY!!!!!! hehehehe. i love dionne's rose. thanks man! :D but it broke into half when amanda played with it. hahahaha. i guess it was too weak, no water n sunlight mah. tsktsk. chocolates n sweets:D hey there sweethings :)

my valentine tonight is someone very special, of which everyone hates :p

hhhahaha

drum roll pls

HOMEWORK

hi. i MISS you very much. why do you alwways have to come everyday?!?!?!?!?!

2008-02-10T12:26:00.000+08:00

Let's dance, get on the floor don't need to hold back :D

End of story. it's school tomorrow. maybe we can try to put in some pictures here so it won't look so dull n boring yknow? cos it's like so full of words. KRISTEL, I'M COUNTING ON YOU! hahahaha. :D

another day to start sch tmr.and from what i know, there's elit test [unseen prose} :/, hcl and ss assigment. sian >.<
looking forward to wk 9 though. no tests n cca cos it's HCI exchange programme!!! haha. i know ur r jealous. hahahah. NO LUH. jus jkjkjk. :)
i wanna watch jay chou's movie; stephen chou's movie and ........ hahaha AH LONG PTE :p
no money luhs.
HOLS COME QUICKLY, even though it's just the ending of this one. i can't wait. but i dun want o's the come so quickly man! SCARED SCARED.
my cousin's damn smart can. 7 a1s for 8 subjs!!!
sot liao. so smart.

thinking too much these few days again. i need hmwk to keep me occupied so that i won't think too much. lol!

goodbye,goodbye. see you again next year, even though i really hope it will be real soon, like now?! hahaha.

2008-02-09T13:23:00.000+08:00

that's the life

cny was ok i guess. just that i can't stand the false pretences everyone is putting up. damn fake. no matter what, we are still a family. Do things really have to turn out this way?

as usual, due to the BIG family i have, cny- long n tiring, fruitful n memorable.

I GOT TO SEE U AGAIN! haha. :D

teenagers are still the most pure n innocent of all. no false pretenses. no motives behind any smiles. ur smiles are damn charming. <3

i hope hols dun end. i dun want any tests n hmwk pls! it's getting irritating. everyone thinks i'm turning into a nerd for i was doing my hmwk during cny. -.- not my fault right.

can u pls stop lying. i can't stand liars if u don't know, i telling u NOW.

ANYWAY. THIS BLOG IS OFFICIALLY DEAD.

2008-02-06T12:02:00.000+08:00

hehe. seet n neon are at my hse now :D doing physics proj which.... -.-
neon wants to go shopping. hahaha. their reunion dinner is very early. hahahaha.
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYONE! YAY i very happy:D
i hope there wouldn't be any unhappy incidents this year again.
there's no point. i can't understand how kinship can turn out this way.
NO MORE. this year will be a happy year.

u gave me a smile i will never forget :D

2008-01-22T12:33:00.000+08:00

I'M SICK! Oh man! didn't go to sch today. cos I"M SICK>.< i didn't pon sch ok!! eeyur. i don't like to miss lessons :d mrs yeo teach so fast! miss one day only can die luhs. :( see i'm so sad now. :( EC rocks! so many tests dun need to take! hahaha. great. BUT GOT LOTS OF COURSEWORK N PROJECTS. :( that's the bad thing though. think i'll be missing trg tmr. cos of the personal development workshop which i couldn't make it today. :( sec ones came yst! but i went home early, even before sch ended. :( well. my hcl sucks like dunno wat. i almost failed the test can. someone help me. n there's a hcl compo test tmr. I CAN'T AFFORD TO FAIL THIS. cos it's included in ppr. :( DUMBO! eeyur. i'm sooooo SAD. i miss seet. :(
OH. HAVE I TOLD U DENISE NEO IS LIKE DAMN NICE? she's going to deliver the hmwk to my hse today! OMG. N she lives in like woodlands, so it's totally different ways?! THANKS A LOT MAN.
n it's really ppl like this that brightens up ur day when u r feeling down.
It's ppl like this that touched ur heart with the simple things they do for you, their simple gestures, n the effort they make, JUST FOR U.
=)))))

2008-01-19T13:29:00.000+08:00

internet seriously suck. it's making me addicted to it so much, i'm not doing my hmwk, not studying for my tests :( i hate sec 3. so many hmwk, projects, tests. never ending can. trg was ok i guess. good luck to sch team! must fight hard k!
thinking too much these days. thoughts are going off track.

n i just realise today, that no one is ever going to bring me to safra for swim again. it just hit me hard again, n again, n again. i can't turn back time, to the times when we all were so happy, yet we didn't treasure. i miss horsing in the waters. i miss competing to see who can swim the fastest. do u know wat?

we're all going different ways now.

2008-01-08T15:46:00.000+08:00

Oh great. So according to mrs lily tan, sec 3 is our honeymoon year. GREAT. second week of sch, 2 tests, one english the other hcl. i think i'm going to flunk the first one. :( my eng sucks. daisy tan carnival this sat. many many hmwk n one da zuo ye coming up. can anyone tell me how nice the sch can get?

2008-01-03T15:58:00.000+08:00

Heck. Muscle aching like crap. HOW!!!! Only 1 week nv train stamina drop like shit. Didn't finish suicide. wanted to die alrd can. sch was... ok i guess. Talent discovery today. :) very fun. the sec ones this yr damn....... hahahaha. mrs yeo is nice:) i'm so jealous of faith! they got mr choo for chem lah! wllll! AT is not bad lah, but a bit too chim can. hahaha. POST LAH DIANA!

2008-01-02T21:53:00.001+08:00

whey!you all leave the guestbook dead >:/ how dare you allllllllllllllllllll.
hahaha so how was i am legend? nice? (:
rahrah vry bored. grace okay wht! haha

2008-01-01T13:40:00.001+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!! haha. just realise only sec3s n 4s have lessons tmr. :( BOOO. n why is it that only my class have 3 lessons n all other classes only have 2? BOOOOO. how great man. was flipping through the hcl txtbk my cousin gave n i realise how badly vandalised it was. not to mention his handwriting is ..... n the pictures are all so colourfully highlighted. -.- thanks a lot man. u better pray that my teacher doesn't see all that or nt only i will be dead, so will u! blah. i want wang lao shi as my chi teacher!!!! she won't mind the 'graffiti', i think. Or at least better than the other teachers!!!!!

2007-12-30T14:03:00.000+08:00

Hellooo,
Okay lah, here to post.
You guys find 1 day after school reopen come? Haha.
I'm still left with my stupid english speech & maths homework Zzz...
I still wanna playyy, dont wanna go back to school yet.

2007-12-29T12:44:00.000+08:00

ok. getting headstrong this few days. sorry for being so vulgar so i edited the previous post.
:( sch's reopening soon. like in jsut a few days? n trg's starting on the FIRST day of sch. how great can things get. i seriously need a dose of happy medicine to lift my spirits up. lol. so long, n why doesn't diana post???? haha.

2007-12-27T13:33:00.000+08:00

class allocation suck like dunno what. i feel so ____. i wish i can just pon sch forever. why is everyone going to 3F n i'm in 3G? with a whole lot of ppl i ____. nvm. i just wonder how am i going to survive suffering for the nxt two years. i dun think tings are going to turn out fine.
:(((((((((((

2007-12-25T23:04:00.001+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!
enjoy yourselves watching i am legend tom!(:
though i'll not be there):
diana's hse on this weekend, okay? pleaseeeeeeeeee.

Ysomeone you'll miss tom and someone whom you wish misses you too.

2007-12-22T15:28:00.000+08:00

i want go diana's hse!!!!!!!!! say so long nobody reply me :( haha. i miss my ghouls. watch some gruesome show yst night with my dad. i seriously swear my dad is cool. haha. the show was super disgusting and grosteque and he can still say it's not exciting enough. -.- THE RETURN OF THE LIVING DEAD: NECROPOLIS. It's abt these grp of teenagers that went to this scientific centre n turn out they kept zombies in there. these zombies feed on human brains n went around sucking ppl's brains out with their TEETH, mind you. eewww. after that no mood to watch tv le. haha. was damn tired n the movie was too disgusitng. :p

2007-12-21T16:28:00.000+08:00

CHENYUHUI DIDN'T GO FOR THE BBQ! D:
idiot idiot idiot idiot.

oops i almost forgot the pw. :X

2007-12-21T16:05:00.000+08:00

Farewell. :) it's not goodbye forever. i hope so. everything was crap today. sec ones n their puppet show, sec twos with the RETARDED netball idol or whatever. mei you lian jian ren liao. :( sec threes n their video. Nice, nice, very nice. hahaha.
Trg: Mr Yeo didn't turn up. or shld i say he only came for like 15 mins? sec 1 orientation today. u just can't imagine how we laughed when he showed up in his shirt n trousers. it's just so..... hehe. As usual, 8 rnds. Pair ball, limin like very long nv do forget how to do alrd. lol. milkshake, square, game, suicide. did 5 only. haha. i'm a slacker. :p
I guess that class gathering was really fun. sorry for not being able to turn up. Sometimes things just don't turn out the way we want to. i guess i missed all the fun, memories we can't make up for. so there, maybe there's another chance nxt yr.

i wonder why those long bus rides always make me think of you

2007-12-17T16:04:00.001+08:00

Back from anderson match! we had a draw. :) was playing like ______ as usual. :( the Gk cum Gs was like 1.78m tall!!!! WOAH. scary. i can't understand why i can't jump on court. maybe _______ had been right abt me after all. hoho. went northpoint with helenaaa to buy mum's bdae present. Saw yewyi, jianyi n some weird guy. lol. we all very dao. hahaha. come pretend dunno each other. then saw pervin n his mum in macs. lol. took 806 hm, same as yewyi. ask him buy fiesta ticket he come say very sian leh. -.- huh! dun care. force him buy.haha. I WANT GO DIANA'S HSE! n n i dunno how to do hist source based graded! someone help me. i think i'm gonna fail cos i wrote rubbish! dunno how to write. :(

2007-12-16T14:05:00.000+08:00

YAY! Back from kl trip :DDDDD got miss me not? lol! shall blog abt my trip :)
DAY1:
reach kl at abt 2 plus, then went to my hotel room :D very nice! Settled in, put down our things and went to eat at the food court. wa sae. damn suay can. haven't even reach kl, in the coach my shoes 'open mouth' -.- Had to wear slippers then went times square to shop for a pair of shoes that cost RM 49.90. haha, quite ok lar, abt the same price as shoes in sing. Walked around the whole shopping centre, very very big! Bought a shirt, a pair of shoes and a bag! :D Had dinner then slack in hotel :D couldn't sleep at night. Think i was still not accustomed to the new bed, but i love the blanket very much. HEHEHE.
Day2:
Went out! Walked like dunno what shit cos we dunno where was all the shopping centres were. After walking for so long until my legs were sore, we reached CHINATOWN haha.Things were so cheap there but mummy dun let me buy. Say got no money but i know have lor. haha. nvm, i bought a lot, she's right, so it's ok. :) bought a skirt there,then........... RAIN AHHHHH! suay. cannot go back times square cos it was rainning damn heavily. took a cab bakc. STUPID INDIAN UNCLE. no offence to indians but he was really unreasonable. WHAT KIND OF COUNTRY IS MALAYSIA PLS. bully tourists! he didn't even turn on his meter, when we got into the taxi, he just said: "I dun turn on the meter, i can send ur there. RM 15, can?" wtf. that's like $7 plus dollars in sing can! AND CHINATOWN IS SUPER NEAR TIMES SQUARE. Can reach in abt 10 mins lor! where got so much money! my dad's fren reached there, paying only RM 4.50 to the taxi driver who turned on his meter. wtfffffff. ANGRY. nvm. forget it le. Had dinner, then walked arnd. Watched i not stupid too at abt 10 plus at night. it was showing in the tv. haha. laughed and cried once again. Y the show. very meaningful. :) slept very well that night. think cos i was tired and i 'adapt' to the bed le! haha.
Day 3:
woke up early in the morning. bathe. ate the RM30 breakfast lol! then went back hotel room to rest for a while. watched harry potter and the goblet of fire :D hehe. then went to the theme park to play! haha. very fun. i squished my dad until his arm very, very pain. oops. haha. my fren vomited! cos i think she sat the 'DNA MIXER' then they turn 360 degrees many, many times. damn scary. think her dna confirm all mix le. lol. went home at 3. sat the coach. reached home at 10pm. the taxi driver was driving so fast. hahaha. :D

Anderson match on mon. sian. like so long nv train. but only missed 2 trgs. haha.
i dun like this kind of pressure, this kind of stress. i dun want to worry abt how i would perform in every match, cos there's no use. i suck. that's how it goes abt. i dun want to care, but i have too. i'm such a failure. not looking forward to mon. :(

2007-12-13T19:46:00.000+08:00

Hello!
Okay, I'm here to post something finally.
Firstly, wish that Yu Hui will have a great time in KL =)
And ya, talking about the ps2 game, I went to the internet and researched on the haunted mansion for some game guides & I found out that there's a total of 25 rooms or places that we must clear. Currently, we're at room 9, which is the ballroom. Haha, wonder how long will it takes to finish the game >.<

2007-12-12T21:01:00.000+08:00

crap. that's what to post, my dear dear diana. hahaha. went diana's hse today to kill time n return her seventeen magazine. am currently VERY addicted to the haunted mansion! Can't wait to make it to the graveyard. see you there then, GHOULS. hahaha. leaving for kl tmr! Dun miss me too much! LOL. Y

2007-12-11T13:44:00.000+08:00

useless freak. i wonder why u even appear on this earth. u don't deserve anything that u get; cos u r just so useless. u never seem to be able to do anything well. u r just a burden to others, the team n everyone else. u jus can't get anything u reap for, no matter how much efforts that r put in. dun blame God for being unfair. beocs that's how u were born in the first place. u have no one else to blame except for yourself. Give up. there's no turning back, n u r definitely not moving forward. what's the use of adding to the troubles of others when u can bear it on ur own, when others are unhappy to see u sad and try to cheer u up with all means. u just dun deserve wat u get.

2007-12-08T21:37:00.000+08:00

Hey! this blog is soo dead! lol. went for cip at singapore badminton hall today. :) took the LONG bus ride from yio chu kang to geylang haha. ended up late. :/ cip was slack. jus sat there watching the players smack the hell out of their heads. they are sure to have muscle aches after the matches. Pro sia. they all are damn pro. Play until so suave and dramatic. haha. Badminton's a nice sport! <3

sjc friendly match

2007-12-05T15:07:00.000+08:00

Yohoo! why diana never post?! haha. Had friendly with sjc today. 18-12. :/ we lost. bad weather. rainning heavily and everyone was soaked to the skin. bad, bad game. could see most of us were in the bad form today. i played like shit. dun wanna talk abt it anymore. knew my standard wasn't going anywhere else except for the worse.

2007-12-05T14:11:00.000+08:00

hello haha i edited the blogskin alittle here and there and some are just crap:/ because i really can't think.i added in a guestbook too:D cause i dont like cbox hahaha.hmm you can add in smileys too you knw!it's damn cute.thr's siumpsons, ppg, sesame street, scoobydoo, pacman, mario, lord of the rings, harrypotter and alot others :D
rah okay i have to go study for my sj stuffs now alr. so byeeeee!Y

monday((((((((((:

At the beginning

2007-12-04T18:30:00.000+08:00

New blog. New post. New beginning. First post. In tribute to me, who never once have a blog and went through that extremely tedious process just now, watching kristel edit the template- super chao ah lian pls. Anyway, went to bishan library today to sign the cip form, just to find out we have to register online. What crap. :/ I'm seriously in need of cip hours! Anyone got 'lobang', come tell me hor! :x yeps. 10 years of friendship, first day of blog. :) lame. had a fun day criticising ppl in their friendster today. n maybe that's why, it's never lonesome with us 3....